My Jesus Story and How He Changed my Life

Hello, dear reader!

Happy Spring.  =)  This season makes me giddy. I think I squeal most in spring. (I'm not even a squealing type of girl. But first flowers, first butterflies, first bees?!? I even ate redbud blossoms!) IT'S ALL SO BEAUTIFUL!!

But instead of spring, today I'm sharing my Jesus story.

It used to be hard to pinpoint my story. I grew up as a Christian. I always knew about Jesus. I don't have a uniquely mystical before and after testimony, so maybe I didn't have an important Jesus story.

This spring, I've been praying for Him to open my eyes to the story He wrote so I could pen the work He's done so gracefully for me.

He did! So here's my Jesus story. (and some lingering wintery photos)

And I challenge you: do you have a Jesus story?

If I told you my story
you would hear Hope, that wouldn't let go
and if I told you my story
you would hear Love that never gave up
and if I told you my story
you would hear Life, but it wasn't mine

Once upon a time…

Jesus chose to let me know Him since I could remember. When I was four, I promised myself to Him, and later I confirmed it by being baptized. Little Hosanna loved Him in a child way, savored His creation and good gifts to me.

Yet I grew older, doubted that those first promises were true. I was scared that I wasn’t really saved, and I tried to remember my sin and apologize for every one. And one night, I broke down and gave myself again to Jesus because I was scared I was pretending and would be punished. I didn’t want our relationship to be based on fear, but my frightened heart gave in, and I begged Him to save me.

And Mama prayed with me, encouraged me that it was okay - Jesus would draw me to a place of relationship, love.

He did! That sweet relationship began to deepen. It started as me trying to do what I thought I should. We grew together, and I got to know a little of His heart. Everything that happened was Him! He was with me in hard times. He loved me. He taught me through the Bible, through worship, through His people, through His sweet presence. He lived every-day life with me. I met the God of the universe, and He called me His own! 

And one day, I stopped and looked back.

Things had changed. I didn’t belong to Jesus because of fear anymore. I belonged to Him because I loved Him; I desired Him for who He was.

If I should speak, then let it be of the grace

that is greater than all my sin

of when justice was served, and where mercy wins!

of the kindness of Jesus, that draws me in

oh to tell you my story, is to tell of Him.

Since then, He’s grown me!

We’ve written books together, and He’s guided me through every step. He’s answered prayers in ways I can’t explain any other way. He’s held my hand through fears. He’s brought me to places I could never go on my own. He shows me my weaknesses (which are still many) and helps me become more like Him. Not because I deserve it, but because it’s a relationship He chooses to have with me!

Without Him, I’m broken. I’m selfish, judgmental. Without Him, this girl would have no purpose to live today or the ones following. I would be grumpy, irritable, angry. I’d struggle with anxiety, no way to escape. Truthfully, I’d be so, so empty inside and just try to fill it with faulty solutions. I'm not a good person.

But with Jesus, I have hope of glory forever, and it starts now! I have purpose for today. I have a reason to be glad, a reason to love, a reason to sing!

With Jesus, I’m whole. I’m joyful. I can sing and praise and love life! He showers grace on us, and I'm thankful and overwhelmed at Him!

Life is beautiful just because of Jesus.  

He chooses to love me—and He finds pleasure in me! He blesses me and cherishes me, and because of what He has done, I’m righteous before God!

Righteous. Holy. Pure.

It’s all Him. All His amazing grace and goodness and love.

If I told you my story, you would hear victory

over the enemy

and if I told you my story, you would hear freedom

that was won for me

and if I told you my story, you would hear Life

overcome the grave

 

And that’s His story in me. I’m undeserving, and He chose to give Himself for me. From now until forever, I’m praying to grow toward Him like a flower turns toward the sun, and I just long to be in His presence and know Him completely as He fully knows and loves me.

I'm still imperfect on my own. I forget this testimony a lot. But Jesus has and is changing me, and He will finish what He started! I have so far to go, so many weaknesses still, but I trust Him.

I don't have much of a before and after testimony. But I do know without Jesus, I wouldn't be here. Without Him, I'd be so lost. And that's the perfect story for me, because it's ours! ♥

Jesus changed my life, and I love Him.

And He can change yours too, dear reader. Do you have a Jesus story? Or if you do, have you forgotten it, like I so easily do?

Eternity has already started, and He is faithful from today to forever.

And He's longing for you.

This is my story, this is my song

praising my Savior all the day long.

 

But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus.

- Ephesians 2:4-6

lyrics by Big Daddy Weave (My Story)

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